Yes, that is very likely - that pieces of my current life reminds me of the past, and my body enters some kind of defensive state and easier escapes into things.RRM wrote:Wintran, may it be that you dont like your current day job, in as much as you didnt like to go to school?
Yeah, exactly.avo wrote:I hear you, especially about the computer thing. Once I'm on it, I like to stay on it.
When you put your full focus on things it's hard to feel the complete spectra of needs and feelings in our bodies (such as sleep and hunger). There are many ways to reach this focused state, but computers are one of the strongest as it keeps you just active enough to make you feel stimulated and active, but without exhausting you (like physical training does), so that you don't really need to take a break from the activity itself.
The problem is not the computer but the situation itself, when it becomes an escape from your other needs and feelings, and from the rest of reality that you simply cannot live without.